It all started when I went to SouthAfrica to model, I was attacked, robbed and hurt very badly so couldn’t do anything related to my work, neither walk around the house. So I ended up signing myself up holistic health studies on the NY Institute of Integrative Health.

I didn’t have the money for that back at that time - neither the chance I could make some any time soon but I did always believed in the power higher then myself so I asked Universe for Miracle and he helped me out by finding several different scholarships, discounts so I could do that.

When I did move to NY I was starting from the zero, no money, no working permission , no rich boyfriend or friends I could count on but my soul was madly in love with that city so he helped to find the way and always survive. I’m talking about the moments when I didn’t even know where I would sleep at the night or what I would eat the next day.

It was the period when I was living in NY when I have relied that this “Higher Self” is not some mad man made cliche but the real thing and I decided to start to use it as develop the connection with it again. What I’m referring to it’s simply called “intuition” the 6th sense and the voice in our head all we have but we often overlook it as we go through our life that we not only loose the touch with it but we forget about its existence completely.

Yes, you can live your life , yes, you can still be pretty successful but it’s like driving the car without the GPS. You’ll get there. Eventually. Just might need ‘a bit more’ time, you will be asking for the direction several times with no always getting the “right” answer (cause who did say that people you are asking for help know it better ). I refer to intuition as your inner GPS system.

Cause when you look back in your life, especially at the moments when you “made a mistake” deep down you did know what you were suppose to do but your mind convinced you to do otherwise.

I learn how to use this “skill” even more when I did studied yoga and especially Kundalini yoga and its psychology.

I went through several “awakenings” in my life and after the number 13 I just stopped counted them.

One of the biggest was when I went through the state of clinical death after one of my meditation practise when I just wasn’t sure if I still wanted to come back.

I spent my first lock down living almost 5 months completely alone like a Robinson on his own island and it was one of the period of time when all what I have learnt before became very handy and basically crucial for survival. And it was also there when I got to realise I cannot keep postponing my mission any longer.

The urge of my soul’s call gets to the point when I literally have no other choice then to do that. My soul decided for me that I have basically two choices : “I choose myself “ or I’m not going to be able to live. (I would be having heart attack, broken heart, brain injury, leg injury, back pain, serious depression , covid =))) ect ect as the results of trying to be normal and not acting from my higher power all the time.